自瀆並不可怕

可怕的是教義式的盲目服從、盲目咐和。身邊的基督徒、天主教徒朋友,大多數是開明的。可是總有少數人聽的不是聖經的話,而是聽那些「詮釋聖經」的人的話。

我不想把這話題拉到存在主義上面去,但沒有其他的例子比米蘭昆德拉於《生命中不能承受的輕》裡說得更好。那是第六部--《偉大的進軍》裡最精采的一段,節錄如下:

「…When I was small and would leaf through the Old Testament retold for children and illustrated in engravings by Gustave Dore, I saw the Lord God standing on a cloud. He was an old man with eyes, nose, and a long beard, and I would say to myself that if He had a mouth, He had to eat. And if He ate, He had intestines. But that thought always gave me a fright, because even though I come from a family that was not particularly religious, I felt the idea of a divine intestine to be sacrilegious.

Spontaneously, without any theological training, I, a child, grasped the incompatibility of God and shit and thus came to question the basic thesis of Christian anthropology, namely, that man was created in God’s image. Either/or: either man was created in God’s image—and God has intestines!—or God lacks intestines and man is not like Him…」

意思是說,既然上帝依照自己的模樣去創造人類,那祂也應該有嘴巴。照道理推斷,祂也應該有小腸。如此一來,祂也應該會有大便。可是米蘭昆德拉遇到跟我們今天遇到一樣的問題:大便是不神聖的、大便是不能與「神」這個概念共存的。

可是,米蘭昆德拉知道,不能共存的不是「大便」和「神」,而是嘗試去詮譯上帝的人類。故此,他帶出了最重要的一點:

「Kitsch is the absolute denial of shit.」

媚俗是對大便的絕對否定。

所以某些教徒在大肆宣揚如何被聖靈充滿、如何打勝「脫離自瀆」這場仗,他其實是宣揚一種媚俗的觀念,一種在某些狹義教義、而非其宗教核心信仰下的虛偽表現。

一個人打著信仰的旗幟去妖惑眾人,那是精神自瀆。一群人不分青紅皂白,看到旗幟上「耶」、「穌」、「聖」、「經」幾隻大字便讚好,那是集體精神自瀆。英文世界裡有個新詞叫「circle jerk」,形容這情況最切合不過。要精神自瀆或者集體精神自瀆不是問題,不要走出來公眾地方讓人貽笑大方就行了。

不知道上帝得悉此事時,會不會會心微笑。